I ran out of the pill and couldn’t get an appointment at the doctors’ surgery, that’s when I became pregnant. Online, I had read that the pill stays in your system for a while after you stop taking it so I thought I would be fine not to take it for a bit – but obviously, that was wrong. My partner never found out I got pregnant because I know he would have wanted me to keep it and I didn’t want to cause an argument or upset him. I knew what I had to do. I was still in full time education and felt like I wasn’t ready to have a child. It was an unfortunate situation and I did have moments before I actually got it done where I would lie in bed and feel quite sad and think ‘there’s actually a child inside me’. Moments like that really upset me. After the abortion I didn’t leave the clinic with contraception and I was later offered the implant at my doctor’s but I changed my mind. I want to start the pill but haven’t got around to it yet so I’m just using condoms at the minute.
When I look back I guess it is always going to be a part of my life and something I had to go through – but life happens. I mean abortion, it’s an upsetting thing, it’s a traumatic thing, and it’s a controversial thing. But at the same time, it’s there for a reason.